I had a doctors appointment today, and I’m going back on enbrel!!!!!! Side effects be damned.
Starting……..tonight!
My white blood count is dangerously high, therefore i must get off the prednisone!!!!!! Oh happiness, happiness, happiness.
Good things can happen. Haha.
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I had a complete mental breakdown over a pair of pants today.
Not the pants so much as my inability to get them on.
I couldn’t stand long enough to get them on.
My hand hurts to bad to pull them up.
My ass was too big to get them up over.
So I had a breakdown. I screamed. I [...]
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I want to be positive. More than anything I want to be positive. I want to put on a brave face.
But sometimes its so hard. Its so damned hard. Sometimes it is impossible.
I just want to be normal. I want to be able to talk to people without getting depressed.
My best friend [...]
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I think one of the hardest parts of dealing with chronic pain is the fact that I can’t talk about it like I would like. People get tired of hearing about it. I don’t blame them. If I heard someone say ” I hurt” everyday for years, I’d get sick of it to. There is [...]
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I wont know for another two to three months.
I can not help but laugh. After over two years, I finally had my court date. It went really well. There is really no way they can not rule in my favor. There was a vocational specialist in the room. By the end of the session, they [...]
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I am so nervous. I am so unbelievable scared.
I just spent an hour on the phone with my lawyer. My case is Monday, and my entire life is dependant on it.
I know I should not have anything to worry about. I have always been honest about everything I’ve written and said to the social security administration.
But [...]
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I hate hate hate hate going in public.
I can not wait until the day I can go out in public without people staring at me. I was always a relatively confident person. Not anymore. I don’t understand why people are so rude.
I would never stare at people the way people stare at me.
I would never [...]
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OK, now I feel bad for the last post. I don’t like complaining. I am very lucky in many ways. I have loads of people who care about me. I need to just get over myself. It’s amazing how feeling better physically can change your outlook on things.
Anyways, one more week! One more week until my [...]
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OK, maybe this is selfish of me. But I just going to go ahead and say it.
I am so unbelievably sick to death of people.
I feel like I spend my days taking care of everyone else. I have had an awful week. Full of pain, lack of sleep, and extreme nausea. I just want to [...]
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Oh God, I know everyone is sick of it. I know they’re tired of hearing about it. But I just can’t stop talking about my weight.
They’re sick of it because no one knows what to say. I do not blame them for being sick of it. I’m sick of it for them. But I don’t [...]
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I’ve had a particularly difficult time today. Ive only been out of bed twice.
Lying in bed all day drives me crazy. I tried to sleep off the boredom. But I was hurting too bad to get any sleep. I distracted myself by rereading some of Pride and Prejudice. I also watched the 2005 version of [...]
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I can honestly understand how a person can become homeless. I am lucky in my situation to have had people to help me in some way. Even if I don’t have anyone in my life who can afford to help me with medical bills, I have had people who let me stay with them. And [...]
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I spoke with my lawyer today.
My court date for my disability case is coming up in three weeks. I have been waiting for two and a half years, so needless to say, I am super excited. There really isn’t any reason I can be denied this time. Reasons why I was denied before were my [...]
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Disability- what a nasty word.
a physical or mental handicap, esp. one that prevents a person from living a full, normal life or from holding a gainful job.
I cant even attempt to explain the hell that comes with dealing with applying for Disability. I cant, and I wont even attempt it here. Its something you have [...]
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