Im going to have to drop my drawing class. Im so crushed. I feel like a part of me just died.
I just keep picturing myself when I was eight years old and drawing Disney characters. I wanted to be an animator when I grew up. And my parents used to tell me I could do anything I [...]
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I really didn’t want to do this, but I need to take a little time to respond to this last comment someone left me.
Sorry, but you are wrong. I remember the first time I saw someone suffering with RA. I remember it as clear as day. It was in Los Angeles 35 years ago. [...]
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Ok, I’ve broached this topic a few times in the past.
Religion and Rheumatoid Arthritis
So there are these people in my life who every time they see me, cant help but offer me platitudes on the struggles of the soul in regards to illness. They offer truly thought provoking philosophical insights into the questions such as [...]
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They said no.
They said no!
They said I’m too young. I always get that excuse.
They said they want to delay it as long as possible because replacements don’t last long and I’m only twenty four.
They said they want to wait a few more years! They said if I was older they would schedule me immediately.
They said [...]
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I began having symptoms in the spring of 2005, and since then I have not gone a single day without pain. It’s become such a normal experience for me. It’s become a part of me.
When I first started feeling pain I thought it was the worst pain I would ever feel. I couldn’t imagine ever [...]
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Ive spent the past couple days painting an old dressing table my aunt gave me. I’ve been taking it slow. Just a little bit at a time. My brother helped by sanding it first and at the moment its still sitting on my porch half painted. It has this huge round mirror attached. Its pretty. I [...]
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I had a complete mental breakdown over a pair of pants today.
Not the pants so much as my inability to get them on.
I couldn’t stand long enough to get them on.
My hand hurts to bad to pull them up.
My ass was too big to get them up over.
So I had a breakdown. I screamed. I [...]
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I hate hate hate hate going in public.
I can not wait until the day I can go out in public without people staring at me. I was always a relatively confident person. Not anymore. I don’t understand why people are so rude.
I would never stare at people the way people stare at me.
I would never [...]
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