This one hurt

I really didn’t want to do this, but I need to take a little time to respond to this last comment someone left me.
                   Sorry, but you are wrong. I remember the first time I saw someone suffering with RA. I remember it as  clear as day. It was in Los Angeles 35 years ago. [...]

Rheumatoid Arthritis and Religion II

 
Ok, I’ve broached this topic a few times in the past.
Religion and Rheumatoid Arthritis
So there are these people in my life who every time they see me, cant help but offer me platitudes on the struggles of the soul in regards to illness. They offer truly thought provoking philosophical insights into the questions such as [...]

Reflections

I began having symptoms in the spring of 2005, and since then I have not gone a single day without pain. It’s become such a normal experience for me. It’s become a part of me.
When I first started feeling pain I thought it was the worst pain I would ever feel. I couldn’t imagine ever [...]

Lack of Insurance

I watched Sicko today. Here’s a summary I found online:
Note to the president: Here’s your chance to lock up Michael Moore. The radically fierce and funny fireball he aims at our health-care system is a flat-out invitation to steal. First, Moore shows us how France, England, Canada and – yikes! – Cuba actually help sick [...]

Rheumatoid Arthritis and Dieting II

I’ve actually managed to gain another seven pounds.
Skirts are no longer an option because the stretch marks are now very bad behind my knees and now reach half way down my calves.
I no longer own a bra that fits. I never thought I’d be annoyed by rapidly expanding breast. If it wasn’t for the stretch marks [...]

A different sort of pain

Today I was hit by a car.
Ha. Ok, So maybe the story isn’t quite that dramatic. But I was injured. And there was a vehicle involved. In fact, it was highly embarrassing. And now I am in a large amount of pain. And for the first time in years, its not because of my R.A.
I [...]

Problems

I want to be positive. More than anything I want to be positive. I want to put on a brave face.
 
But sometimes its so hard. Its so damned hard. Sometimes it is impossible.
 
I just want to be normal. I want to be able to talk to people without getting depressed.
My best friend [...]

The crazy dosnt fall too far from the tree

I think one of the hardest parts of dealing with chronic pain is the fact that I can’t talk about it like I would like.  People get tired of hearing about it. I don’t blame them. If I heard someone say ” I hurt” everyday for years, I’d get sick of it to. There is [...]

And the results are?

I wont know for another two to three months.
I can not help but laugh. After over two years, I finally had my court date. It went really well. There is really no way they can not rule in my favor. There was a vocational specialist in the room. By the end of the session, they [...]

Disabilty

I am so nervous. I am so unbelievable scared.
I just spent an hour on the phone with my lawyer. My case is Monday, and my entire life is dependant on it.
I know I should not have anything to worry about. I have always been honest about everything I’ve written and said to the social security administration.
But [...]

Why no one sees me anymore

I hate hate hate hate going in public.
I can not wait until the day I can go out in public without people staring at me. I was always a relatively confident person. Not anymore. I don’t understand why people are so rude.
I would never stare at people the way people stare at me.
I would never [...]

It’s not me. It’s you.

OK, maybe this is selfish of me. But I just going to go ahead and say it.
I am so unbelievably sick to death of people.
I feel like I spend my days taking care of everyone else. I have had an awful week. Full of pain, lack of sleep, and extreme nausea. I just want to [...]