Cowboy Up

I had a follow up with my surgeon this  week.

So, we decided that the hip definitely needs to come out. He says it’s at the end of its life, and I agree. It’s also problematic in that it is keeping my new knee from getting straight.

The only thing is that now that Im finally back in school, I dont want to have to take a semester off. Christmas break isnt long enough to recover, so I want to try and hold off until I get out for the summer in May. Thats eight months though. It seems like an eternity.

The thought of it really scares me. Which is a bit odd since my knee replacements went so well. And have literally changed my life dramatically for the better. I guess it’s irrational and the secret pessimist in me, but it’s almost as if Im scared that theres no way it could go so well three times in a row. Haha. I know. Silly.

But life has been wonderful for me lately. I have to stop myself from overdoing it sometimes. I have to remind myself that I have other joints that arent acting the way I want just because I have new knees.

But my legs are still getting stronger and stronger. I can stand for so much longer. Before the surgery, 20 seconds would feel like torture. I can walk pretty far too. Before the surgery I couldnt get across the apartment without a break. I stood on my bed tonight to dust off a shelf. I havent been able to do something like that in years. So I’m still doing these tiny things that just overwhelm me sometimes.

As far as the other joints go, it looks like Humira is just not cutting it. Shoulders, elbows, wrist, and fingers are becoming very problematic for school. I have to do something if I want to continue in art courses.

So I’ve had a lot on my mind lately. I dont really have a plan yet. I guess I’m just going to try and cowboy up and deal with the hip issues for now and see how it goes.